Trying something New

Ok folks! First off good morning. Usually I use my blog just to write things for myself or vent but Im trying to get  into these sites, where a company post items they want you to review and you receive the item for free or a major discount. Most of the time its thru Amazon so you have to pay shipping but Im going to get the Prime membership because its worth the money. Then you get free 2 day shipping for a lot of things. Im new at this whole experience so please be mind full as I figure this out. Im excited to try something new. I can not wait to reach the point where my front door is stacked up with boxes. 😆😆😆😍😍
 

Here we go- Deb

Car inspection

In the state of New York since this whole state is money hungry assholes; once a year you have to pay to get your inspected. No engine lights can be one if it's no big deal thing the light gets restarted. You drive your car around for a few days then back to mechanic hook up the car to a computer as long as everything's ok car passes you get a new sticker. If it's a big deal you have to get it fixed or the car won't pass and you get in trouble(tickets/fines) well my car was due last day in November. Had plans on getting it inspected but unforeseen events occurred and it was put off. In short went to mechanic had light reset and not even half way home light comes back on. Pissed I keep going home call mechanic second I walk into the door. It's either a fuel valve open no big deal or a fuel pump sensor and since my part is a piece of shit and everything is one fucking piece or has 3 different models of the same part I will have to get the whole fuel pump replaced which is at least 2 hours labor plus part cost. Very upset. Just when I'm about to get caught up and just finished a great weekend being at work and all I get this. Depressing and just I don't even know. I work to barely get buy to just as I start to get ahead get runned over by a fuckin tractor trailer. 

Goin to bed can't think start. Head about to explode. 

Ending the night.

It's 9:52pm on the 1st day of December, husband, daughter, two cats and the dog is in bed. 

        (Why I made everyone go to bed)

Of course, I'm wide awake thinking about munching on something sweet. Just have to decide if I want red velvet cake or Oreo and cream cream covered chocolate balls, decisions decisions maybe I'll just have a piece of both with a glass of milk of course. 

I made red beans with rice and beef pieces for dinner. It was good except a few beans decided to rebel and no cook all the way thru. 

I made a nice big pot that way we have something for lunch tomorrow. Yummy!

I'm a little annoyed I tried to be nice To hubby but he never wants to be affectionate and when he does it's only because he wants sex. Not everything has to lead to sex sometimes I just want I be held and snuggled with. Maybe I'm overreacting. Anyways enough letting me ramble off to eat something sweet. Good night world. 

      Until next time, XOXO

  

Trying this again

    I stopped blogging and lately I've been thinking about starting it again. So here I am giving it another go. It did make me feel better and help get some emotion out. 

   Today I feel accomplished, I was so thankful to realize the pipes had unfroze and again we had running water. I filled the sink to finish the small load that I had not finished before picking up an extra shift last night. 

(Side note: Last night temperature dropped to 7*. No wonder the pipes froze.) 

As they are drying in the strainer and the kids* (husband included) are distracted by their electronic devices, I put on my headphones and put on some county music always seems to soothe me. 

    I head to the bathroom to tackle the mess I've been putting off; mostly the cats mess. I first throw away my floor mat and a pair of my husband's jeans (that I love on him) because his cat once again has peed/sprayed on them and no sense in trying to get the smell out it never goes away. I feel as tho I should mention nothing upsets me more or as fast as coming across something "Cat" had urinated on. It doesn't matter how clean the litter box is, his cat still feels the need to pee on something else. He's 17 years old, sounds awful but he can't live forever right? Just out of spite I bet he will try his damdest. Anyways, trash taken out, floor scrubbed, litter box scooped, toilet scrubbed, and sink with all my unnecessary necessity organized. I have the hubby take out the bag of trash I have collected and I'm done in the bathroom feeling like a god!

     It's so sad the things I get excited over now a days. I don't know wether to be happy the simple things excite me or worried I'm getting "old" before my time. I'll sit on the couch for a while trying to get warm again while Bug (my daughter/only child) naps. Then take her over to the In-Laws to spend time while I make dinner. I'll get back to you when I decide what I'm making. 

Until then farewell, 

   Deborah

P.s. I thought I'd attach a picture of the kids* distracted by their electronic devices (iPhones)

Giving up

It's 7:37am on Monday, I'm just getting home from work which is suppose to end at 6:30am. Instead we worked until 7am extending my already 12.5 hour shift. I almost got nailed for a 16 hour shift which I'm more then sure I won't have made it thru without exploding on someone. I feel like i work in a place that could care two shits about how you feel or what problems you maybe dealing with. They are only nice when they need you to work or do something that would help them. I perform care on residents who are unappreciative, rude, abuse & all out mean. On top of it all to have to deal with Fellow co-workers who are lazy & would prefer to call in rather then show up to work.
I can't take it want to explode. If I didn't need the money so bad I'd quit tell them to shove it.

I wanna cry the second I get to my car but can't, still have to drive the half an hour home on windy roads. The second I walk thru our bedroom door I feel the tears building but push them back don't wanna bring work home. So I suck it up & put on my fake smile so not to ruin anyone else's.

Maybe I'm depressed, maybe I'm just stick & tired of the same routine, the same bullshit. Maybe if I took my vitamins & ate right, slept more or even like a normal person. That won't be changing anytime soon stuck on nights only thing that works for out family. I would love to be home every night to put our princess to bed instead I do it 2 times a week.

Enough mopping gonna try & get a few winks in before cleaning this disaster called my house what gets so irritated.

Gps

Why is it that anytime a man knows were one section of the highway is no matter where we Are going they always have to go to the spot where they know. Bad enough we have to be in the car for 3 hours with Laila who is 8 months but now he has added almost 45 mins to the ride. It's not that hard to follow directions. Laila will only be patient in a car for so long in one direction. Maybe it's just me but come on the gps is telling you where to go.

7 months old

My little girl (Laila) turned 7 months old last Monday, its so hard to believe how fast the time has past. She went from doing nothing by sleeping, drinking, peeing & pooping. Now she crawls, makes all kinds of noises, she mimics things that we do, & has a personality I all her own.

She's scooting right now with moments that she crawls. I think she's going to go from scooting to walking then crawl. Yesterday she scared the crap out of me grabbed the rail of her crib pulled herself up & tried going over. Silly girl now we have to lower her bed before she climbs out.

At moments raising a baby can be so hectic & it changes everything. No more coming & going as you please. No staying out late & hanging out. The strange thing is its ok, I love spending time with Laila when she's in a happy mood. She smiles & giggles it melts my heart.

I love my princess.

Picture the first day she was born October 21,2011

Picture at a week over 7 months old June 7, 2012