Friday, May 25, 2012

Laying in his arms

It's 1:30 in the morning, I lay here with my head on my husband Lester's chest with his arm around my neck and laying on my stomach. I love to lay like this with him so close to me. Hearing his heartbeat and feeling the beat of his heart against my back.
I would dream of finding someone to love me for me with all my flaws & imperfections. I don't know how I got so lucky. I went to Riverdale for 3 years & never thought I would end up with husband. We were from 2 different social levels; He was a jock & I didn't really fit in. I would admire him from Afar not realizing he was doing the same. As the years went on I grew up getting more comfortable with who I was & opening up. Started dating & then landed a jock (worm) who happened to be the best friend of my admirer. I always said " I'd never date a best friend or switch from a guy to his bestfriend, fearing i would break up a great friendship. well that relationship with worm was going great. My admirer (Lester) & I got to know each other because we all hung out together. I got to see a side of him not many had seen. His smiled was indescribable. I never acted because I wasn't gonna end a friendship but Slowly worm & I started fighting. He would go out to clubs without me. Which I was fine with I come from a strict family & could never go to things like that. I trusted worm even though I heard he cheated. He was a wrestler would go to put of town event, I heard things but when I asked worm he said they never happened & I didn't see them happen so I had no reason not to believe him. Just assumed girls were trying to break us up. More & more I heard then one night I got a picture text that confirmed the rumors & worm couldn't deny that. Later found out he stole a gift he ave me from Lester. I was so hurt couldn't believe it. I had trusted him, Lester would comfort me. Feelings slowly growing & one night couldn't fight them anymore. I ended things with Worm & now almost 7 years later here I am , living in new york, married to Lester with a beautiful baby girl. We own 2 cars, have 2 dogs, 2 cats & a crazy horny rabbit. All we need is to find our "perfect house" & a brother for Laila ;-)

Looking at back I truly believe in the quote, "Everything happens for a reason"